Friday, January 22, 2010

I WANNA BE TRULY HAPPY.. (part 2)

he was truly sorry for what he did to me. he said to me that when he says sorry, he will not do it again. I always believe in him, even though people make comments about him. bad comments, to be specific. so that day after, we really got the time to talk at MTS. we hugged and hugged, kissed and kisse, until he said something with his head facing down. saying, "I'm sorry for what I did. but you know, sometimes we're happy, we laugh, we get hurt and we get sad. but that's life. iloveyou." i hugged him tight like he was about to choke! i really felt that he really loves me, and i really love him.. :D I realized that there isn't one relationship that has no problems. and, we have to face trials so we can reach that goal.. that forever. Vincent Michael Cruz Cantos, he's all mine! :D

I WANNA BE TRULY HAPPY..

as I said in my last blog, January was really problematic. so I made solutions to this problem we had for weeks..

1. hide my feelings, especially when I'm hurt.
2. say "I'm okay" when he asks.
3. smile when he mentions girls.

that worked for some time. it worked because every night, I cry myself to sleep. it has been two nights until a day came. me and my hubby went with our friends because, uhh, to hang out! ahaha. I noticed that he was starting to misbehave. RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY TWO EYES. (misbehave=flirt) I was already in tears but i held them. I couldn't show them tears in my face, streaming down. Smile, that's what I thought. and our friends was scolding my hubby because he was really misbehaving. he asked me for million times if I was okay, i just nodded my head and smiled. he said that I should tell. the problem is, if I tell, I would surely cry. so I said, "later." then we went away from them. and we always go home early because of some things.. ahaha. XD and then, we waited for me to get a jeep. but tears was starting to build up. and he asked me what the problem was. I told him, "your love for me is killing me. every effort I make for you, you somehow won't appreciate it. but, your love is sustaining me at the same time. because i love you." (in English) tears were everywhere. I said to myself that I would never say that to hime, for us to have no problems. and there, I said it. hubby was just silent. and he had to go. he kissed and hugged me goodbye.. (continuation after.)

Friday, January 15, 2010

WE WERE KIDS. :DD

(jaunuary 2010) every Saturday, Vincy and I would always get together. we always make a time. we make it a point to see each other. January 16, 2010 came. (monthsary of my good pals Gayle Li and Renz San Miguel!) he had to serve first thing in the morning in our school because he was suspended. BAD BOY, I KNOW. ahahahaha! we planned that we go together in the afternoon since his serve is only in the morning. he said that I should be there before eleven. so I prepared! I wore an Artwork purple shirt, white pants, jacket and his kicks. (I borrowed his because I have no white shoes for C.A.T.) and i set off. oh, not to mention that I ALMOST DIED IN THE JEEPNEY! that was fucking shit! the jeepney already stopped at ADDU for me to get off, then it started moving! moving like it was drifting! I jumped off and I was wiggling because I almost lost my balance! I shouted "gago!" as the jeep was getting farther. fuck that driver. ahaha! so, I was shaking. but then, I saw my Vincy. :) I greeted him with open arms and whined to him like a kid. he just laughed because, maybe, I sounded stupid. XD he asked me if I want to have movies or eat. I couldn't decide since I only have Php70! (my two weeks of saving Php200 were all gone!) so I said that we should go to MTS to think and decide. and after a few minutes that we should do some cuddling in movies! :) so we walked, walked and walked! the cute thing about us when we were walking is that he gets my hands, holds them, and holds them up in the air. LIKE WE'RE FLYING! and we're running! the air feels great around our arms! :DDD when we arrived at NCCC, we go straight ahead to the cinemas. but all the movies start at 12:00. so, we decided to play at TimeZone! we drove cars and killed zombies. man, what an adventure! we went to Mcdo to eat McFlurry since I have no lunch. ahaha! we went back to MTS and did the flying thing. we talked and talked until we go home because he had to get his phone at 168. but before we could leave, we talked like a "yaya" and it was so much fun because we sounded stupid and had fun! we jumped over chains and didn't care! THAT ALL HAPPENED IN ONE HOUR AND THIRTY MINUTES. best dates ever! ilovemyVincy! :)

Friday, January 8, 2010

15 SIMPLE WAYS TO BE HAPPIER IN 2010! :DD

(found this at Yahoo.com)

1. Be your own BFF (best friend forever). Enjoy your own company. Embrace everything about you! Without a doubt, it's the most important step towards being a happy person.

2. Smile, giggle, snicker, or chuckle! Smiling releases serotonin in the brain, which instantaneously gives your mood a lift.

3. Dream big in every area of life. Set your life in motion and manifest your heart's desire.

4. Shut the doors and the windows tight! And then put on your favorite song and sing out loud. Let it rip!

5. Cook a healthy, delicious meal. Serve it up pretty and savor the flavor, one bite at a time.

6. Expect a miracle. Believe that something wonderful will happen for you today. The universe is waiting to shower happy blessings on you.

7. Meditate, pray and chant. Research shows that people who are spiritual tend to be happier and healthier than those who are not.

8. Pull up your best pair of warm socks. Wiggle your toes and enjoy a cozy kind of bliss.

9. Sleep baby sleep. Seven or eight hours each night should increase your energy and decrease your moodiness.

10. Count your blessings daily. Gratitude, the emotion of thankfulness, is one of the key ingredients for living a happy life. Make gratitude a habit and happiness will be yours.

11. Wake up early! Start the day off on a happy foot, with a happy thought. The morning hours are full of spiritual energy and prana (life force).

12. Let the sun shine in. 20 minutes of sunlight per day improves mood and wards of Seasonal Affection Disorder (SAD).

13. Take a hot bath. Feel the tension melt away as you sink into a pool of happiness.

14. Say "Good Job!" Give yourself permission to pat yourself on the back. Recognize your accomplishments and positive qualities.

15. Happiness is contagious! Surround yourself with happy, positive people who share your values, your goals and dreams.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

NOLI IS KILLING ME.. AHAHA!

yes folks, it is slowly killing me. i should be dead right now because it is sooooooooo fvcking hard especially we are getting close to the end of the story. but still, IT'S SUICIDAL! it's getting more and more and more and more fvcking complicated. almost cry because it was so hard! ahahahahaha! i just had to laugh at myself because of this. DAMN!